Whole purpose of me starting this awareness/ support group is to help others suffering with similar nerve pain.
Also another reason is so that I can start writing again as I haven’t done in awhile.
Times gone by rather quick… The last time I stepped out of the house was on the 28th February when I went to collect my last pay cheque and have farewell lunch among my ex-work colleagues.
Actually in fact on the 5th of March I did come to Colombo for a meeting along with Dilki. But since then I’ve been home bound. Mostly room bound!
It’s been almost the same routine daily. Some days I wake up very early like 4ish and can’t get back to sleep and sometimes I’m in bed for 2 – 3 days in a stretch, excluding the toilet breaks and the occasional cigarette.
It’s been over 2 months and I haven’t even edited my CV yet. Currently I’m fed up with working and not in a proper mental state to start process of applying for jobs again.
I’ve been rather lucky over last 7 years as I’ve never had to face a proper interview for a job and kept my job for long periods of time. But right now my confidence is so low and body much weaker that I fear having to go through the process of applying for jobs again.
So over the last 2 months or so I’ve gone through various experiences. For times I binge drank for days/ weeks, stayed in bed for days at a stretch.
Only thing I’m happy that I’ve achieved is setting up this awareness & support group for brachial plexus injuries in Sri Lanka and Asia.
There’s much more work to do but things moving rather slow as getting replies, etc takes time.
Overall I would say right now I’m ok ish… Most certainly lost and can definitely be better!